Friday, August 14, 2009

One Month

Our little peanut would be 1 month old today....Adam had to work tonight, but the girls and I went to visit Jillian tonight after it got dark to see her light. I think today it has really hit me and has been a pretty rough night. Ellie and I sat there and cried, and laughed. Ellie says she wishes she had a button to push that would send her to heaven so she can give Jillian a hug, and then come back to us. So sweet. We also talked about how cute she was, and how we wish she didn't have that darn "owie". We also talked about the cute little faces she made, all her big yawns, and the times she stuck her tongue out, how we thought her dark hair was just so cute, and how we still knows she is a brown eyed girl just like us! We also decided to call her our "squeaky peanut"---because she sure made a lot of "squeaky" noises, and she was just a little peanut----both girls were calling her that tonight.

Jillian, we miss you so much. We wish we had just one more day with you, to hold you again, hug and kiss you...and tell you how much we love you. You have a permanent place in our family, and will forever, no matter what. We know you are watching over us each day, you are our special angel. We love you (squeaky peanut)

7 comments:

grandma-grandpa-lansink said...

We wish there was a button too!!! Those girls are too cute! We stopped last night to tell Jillian goodnight also.....the lily pad was just coming on!!! XXOO Mom and Dad Lansink

Katie said...

If only there was a button life would be so much easier... I also stopped today to tell her Hi and I love the flag.... There was just enough breeze today it was swaying...It is good that you are remembering the good...That is all Jillian thinks of you guys too..All the hugs and Kisses and love she got and is still getting. Love ya Katie

Chris, Abby, Ayden, Elliott & Ashley said...

"Squeaky peanut" is a very good name for little Jillian! I can hardly believe it has been a month already...not a day goes by that I don't think about her and miss her...that button idea sure sounds good to me Ellie! Lots of love and hugs and prayers to you all!

MOM said...

Love the fact that Ellie came up with the button! Wouldnt that be wonderful? Jillian is missed....SO MUCH!!! We all have our good days and our bad days....but we know she is in heaven looking down on all of us....Squeeky Peanut is a perfect name for our little one!!!
Love you all.....

Candi Ladwig said...

I love the flag! So cute! That pic of the girls is a fav of mine too, her little content smile :)

Holly said...

Anniversary dates are always harder. You think 'my baby should be this old' and you think of what they should be doing and what they would look like. I'm sorry it was so tough but I completely understand. If such a button existed I'm afraid I would have broken it by now from using it so much.

Amy said...

If only there really was a magical "button"..... I love the flags that are by her side now.