Friday, June 12, 2009

Emotional Ups and Downs

This week has probably been the worst week I have had in months emotionally. I think it set it in that in a few short weeks, little Jillian will be here. With that comes excitement to get to meet her and hold her, but also comes sadness to have to think we have to say goodbye. I have tried my best to stay positive, and to keep my head up, but that is getting harder everyday. This is suppose to be an exciting time---I should be getting her nursery situated, and getting all her clothes washed, folded and hung in her closet and dreaming about what it is going to be like with 3 little girls in the house and how Ellie and Malia would be awesome big sisters---but that was all shattered and we just don't know why?

I know we are so lucky she is still with us at 33 weeks and hope she can hold out for another few weeks, and I know the time we get with her will be wonderful and special and we will treasure it forever. It's just a lot to deal with sometimes....

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thinking about you...

Sheryl said...

I can't even imagine what you are going thru - hope that it helps a little to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family - always -
Sheryl

Jake and Stephanie Perrin said...

Thanks for adding me.. We are praying for you!

Holly said...

It will be so wonderful to finally meet little Jillian but it's bittersweet too. I hope these last few weeks go slow for you.

grandma-grandpa-lansink said...

Adam and Jodi....You are always in our thoughts and prayers. Ellie, Malia and little Jillian are very lucky to have you two as their parents......and they will be awesome "Big Sisters" again someday.We are always here for you if there is anything you need. We know how hard this is for you and are praying for God's strength to help us all. Will see you soon at little slugger's game on Monday...and give our little "kitty girl" some squeezes and hugs. Mom and Dad

Celia said...

Jodi, I so remember those days. Hold your head high and try to focus on the positive things in life. I am sorry that you are having a hard time and wish there was some way I could take it away for you so that you only had smiles and blessings. I am praying for....This time will go by faster than you want it to so cherish each moment.

MOM said...

Yes, it seems like as the time nears we have to find a little more inner strength in ourselves. We need God's strength. I find myself getting scared and worrying about things...but I know we will all pull through. You, Adam, Ellie, Malia and Jillian are all loved very much and there are many many prayers out there for you!
I love you all so much...I wish I could take all the pain away...

Chris, Abby, Ayden, Elliott & Ashley said...

We love you and are thinking and praying for you!

Candi Ladwig said...

I'm sure the next few months will be harder... please remember I am here any time you need to talk, vent, cry, or laugh! Love ya!

The Hamann Family said...

My heart breaks for you, Jodi. I can only imagine how hard this has been and will be for you all. But.... you are stronger than you would have ever thought... God will give you all of the strength you will need... I can ASSURE you of that. Hang in there and CHERISH EVERY moment! Thinking of you and praying for you!